Facebook is Death's worst messenger
Oct. 8th, 2007 08:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
For the second time this year I've broken down crying in front of a cold laptop screen. Earlier tonight I got a Facebook message informing me that an old friend from school died last Friday of an overdose. I was shocked, and though it registered cognitively it didn't quite hit me emotionally. I phoned Meredith to pass the information along, then went down to the talk I'd been planning to attend. But then I came back, and in searching for a number on Facebook I found his profile. The wall was covered in messages of love and rememberance, to which I added my own. I had a strange urge to call his mobile. And then I was sobbing.
It's times like these that I really feel the ocean--the vast, deep, salty, heavy ocean--between myself and home. Grasping at tendrils of electronic information, trying to translate cold pixeled words into emotions, while another loved one slips quietly into the past tense.
Tomorrow I will go to a tutorial in which we will discuss the implausibility of mind-body dualism; the absurdity of the idea that the mind--or soul--could exist without the body.
I love you Ben. Even if there is none, I'm holding you in the Light.
It's times like these that I really feel the ocean--the vast, deep, salty, heavy ocean--between myself and home. Grasping at tendrils of electronic information, trying to translate cold pixeled words into emotions, while another loved one slips quietly into the past tense.
Tomorrow I will go to a tutorial in which we will discuss the implausibility of mind-body dualism; the absurdity of the idea that the mind--or soul--could exist without the body.
I love you Ben. Even if there is none, I'm holding you in the Light.
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Date: 2007-10-09 12:41 am (UTC)that's gorgeous molly, and I agree with it.
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Date: 2007-10-09 09:11 am (UTC)I miss our tea break meetings.
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Date: 2007-10-11 03:26 pm (UTC)was this person from scattergood or AMS? i don't think i knew him, but i'll hold him in the light too.
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Date: 2007-10-14 12:38 am (UTC)