Is all that we see or seem

[mhuzzell]

But a dream within a dream?

Missing out on the fun because you are working is always disappointing. But at least you can say, 'I was working; I was doing something productive'. The worst thing is when you miss out on the fun because you intend to work, but actually just faff about doing nothing at all productive.

Last night I meant to do some reading and get a start on one of my essays. Instead I just messed around online until I realised I was being silly and went in search of people. I found people, but they were all already drunk and on their way out. Being quite sober and not at all dressed to go out, I didn't join them. It turned out alright, though, I ended up chatting with two other Wardlaw girls until nearly 1 am.

Today I actually did start some of my reading after lunch, but I fell asleep over my book and slept all afternoon. I had very strange dreams, too: the sort that are all nested inside each other, you wake up from one, but then when you wake up from waking up, you find that you were still asleep and actually dreamt the whole thing.

So in the interest of stopping the not-working cycle, I'm off for a second attempt to decipher Leviathan. Wish me luck!

...obviously not working. Watching Daily Show clips online and doing this quiz thing:

*9 Lasts*

Last cigarette: never

Last beverage: water

last kiss: a few weeks ago

last movie seen: The Graduate

last phone call: Russell

last cd played: The Weepies

last person you saw: Will, Pan and Kat

last bubble bath: ???

last time you cried: not sure

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* 8 have you evers*

Have you ever dated someone twice: yes

have you ever skinny dipped: yes

have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: yes

have you ever fallen in love: yes

have you ever lost someone you loved: yes

have you ever been depressed: yes

have you ever been drunk and thrown up: yes

have you ever turned down sex: yes

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*7 states you've been to*

In order, to the best of my knowledge:

1. North Carolina (obviously)

2. Tennessee

3. Maine

4. South Carolina

5. Virginia

6. Maryland

7. Delaware

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* 6 things you've done today*

1. Woke up

2. Showered

3. Lunch

4. Read

5. Slept

6. Online

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*5 favorite things in no order*

1. sleep

2. caffeine

3. kissing

4. Daily Show/Colbert Report online!

5. umm... not essays.

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*4 people you can tell pretty much anything to (in no order)*

1. Debbie

2. Russell

3. Liz

4. Melissa

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*3 wishes*

1. That I had some sort of personal discipline or motivation to get through Leviathan. But come on... "For if they be of the time to come, as to-morrow I will give, they are a sign I have not given yet, and consequently that my right is not transferred, but remaineth till I transfer it by some other act."

2. That St Andrews was located in the Caribbean.

3. Infinitely more wishes!

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*2 things you want to do before you die*

1. Get a PhD.

2. Visit every continent.

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*1 thing you regret*

1. Giving up the piano.